Week 23 has come and gone.. Quickly I might add.
In Week 22A I had planned to do my two days of silence. My schedule and life happened.
After hearing the webcast I decided, “Just do It!”
I let those that needed to know I was “In” Yah I had fears and thoughts about why I was going to have issues with being silent.
It was just like all the other exercises that I have done over the past 23 Weeks. Right when I felt apprehension, fear whatever you want to label it as I just stepped in and started.
I know that each and every assignment I have done reminds me of those workouts I just know the hardest part is starting. By the way I am in the middle of a six week exercise routine that starting the workout is the hardest and easiest part. (Each workout last less than 30 min, some as short as 10 minutes) Yet the hardest and easiest part is just getting started.
Once I start I know I just have to keep moving and soon it will be over. I always enjoy the workout after I am done.
The workouts are many times done before I even realized what I have completed…. then my heart rate and breathing start to race.
My workouts use something called a complex. I am using double kettlebells. That means I have a kettlebell in each hand for the duration of the set.
Each workout is a bit different yet it is the same in that each routine challenges in a different way. The shorter complex workout means I get less time to rest because it took me less time to complete the repetitions.
The complexes I am doing are focusing on squats. Each set can have 10 to 15 squats in it. Then rest and quickly back to more squats.
Here is my Medium day from this week.
Double Cleans x 5, Double Front Squats x 5, Double Press x 5, Double Cleans x 5, Double Front Squats x 5. That is one set. This is week 4 of 6 and the rest is 1.5 times longer than it took to complete the moves. So because it takes me about one minute thirty seconds to complete each rest is two minutes fifteen seconds. Then complete the next set. rest then one more set for a total of three….done.
Less than ten minutes done! Yet it takes my heart rate and breathing another 10 to 15 minutes to return to normal. I do all I can to bring my heart rate and breathing under control. By the last set it normally has not come back down totally. By the time I finish my heart rate finally figures out what I have just done… it normally climbs for some time after I am done…
Anyway enough about that. I am always amazed looking back a few weeks and remember how much I struggled… then I look at how much easier doing the same thing is. I did say easier, not easy.
Back to week 23… Yes I put On My Own as the title of this post… For good reason.
I have been posting over the past month or so that at some point Mama and Papa bird gonna kick us out of the nest…
Well I have decided now is the time… Not that I am quitting or giving up. I am not waiting for someone else to tell me that I am ready. They knew we were ready already. Heck they might have already kicked us out and I am just now realizing this.
The tools and exercises we have been given and been using for some time now are a part of everyday life. I love the person I am, because I am now that person I never thought I could become.
I have been a Toastmaster for some time now. I realized and pointed out to people what Toastmasters has been for me.
“Toastmasters has helped me become the best me I could be. It was never made for me to be a copy of someone else. Toastmasters has given me the opportunity to find me, so I can share me with the world.”
I know I can say those very same things about my experience in the MKMMA. And to a much higher degree. I have found the one person that could rescue me and take me to where no one else could.
I found the man in the mirror. The reluctant hero within. Was the one who would believe in me, encourage me, and get me to be the person many would love to follow into a bright future.( including me)
So from a certain point of view I can see now that even though I have been doing this course with many, some as guides, some others on their journey. I have been on this journey alone on my own. I have come full circle. I used to look to others as my guide. They should know more than me. And yet they were able to subtly point everything back to me and when I finally got it. I understood I had the answers I was looking for. The voice within was quietly telling me all that I needed to know about what to do next. Telling me who I could be and how that I am Natures Greatest Miracle.
I know I am not on my own. And yet maybe I am… I thank you for coming along on the journey 26 weeks are almost complete. I have decided they are right it is time to finish strong.
Am I ready for these 26 weeks to be done? Yes and yet a part of me yearns to stay and enjoy the warmth and encouragement. What a great community that wants the best for all who are connected to the MKMMA.
Mark J. talked about commencing. How it is not the end of something but the beginning. When something ends another begins. I have commenced on a new journey with new tools in my tool box. With a spring in my step and a whole new twinkle in my eyes. I think it is the one that I so long ago lost. This time I am choosing to keep the twinkle and the smile. Enjoy the rest of your week til we converse again soon.